• Kelsey

New Year, Same Me

January 1st is a great day for change. A great day to start a new leaf. Begin a new chapter. Make necessary changes in your life. Become a whole new you. But what if you don't want to start a new chapter? What if you don't want to become a whole new you?

If you had asked me in June of 2019 if I wanted to become a whole new me in the new year, the answer would have been yes. But now that it is here, I don't. See, I like the me I've started to become. I don't think I'll ever fully become the best version of me that I could be, but I'm really happy with the direction I'm headed. The me I am right now is a me wanting to grow, to be strengthened, to try new things, to overcome my deficits, to move forward. I like this version of me.

My word(s) for 2019 were Health and Habits. I focused on improving my physical, mental, spiritual, and emotional health while establishing some new, good habits. Overall, I'm really proud of how it went. There were goals that were reached, goals that were abandoned, goals that were too unrealistic, and goals that were added mid-way through.

My word for 2020 is GRACE. I am not very good at giving grace. To others. Or to myself. In 2020 I want to be kinder to others and more compassionate. And more compassionate to me. I don't mean that I want to let myself off the hook for things, but I definitely tend to expect unrealistic things from myself and then beat myself up over the fact that I "failed". 2020 is the year of kindness and grace.

Another thing I started doing in August of 2019 was to give each month a focus. At the beginning of each month, I would evaluate my life and find something I really need to work on. Examples include: Self-Discipline, Routine, Balance, and Pause. This turned out to be really helpful in zoning in on one major flaw that I really wanted to overcome.

So while GRACE is my overall focus for 2020, each month there will be a smaller, more specific focus that I am trying to work on. My focus for January: A LITTLE BIT EACH DAY. Laundry, dishes, writing, whatever. I let things pile up until they become un-tackle-able monsters that I won't even attempt to overcome because they are just two monstrous. So my focus for January is to just do a little bit each day so that they don't overwhelm and destroy me.

Some other goals for 2020:

- Eat cleaner

- Lift heavier

- Learn how to do a ninja jump

- Write on this blog at least once a month

(I have a few more but those are more of the personal variety)

Goals for this blog:

As I stated above, I want to start writing on here at least once a month. Ideally, I would like to post monthly updates on my "focus", and also some more personal stories. Like stories you'd read in an essay-style memoir. (My ultimate dream would be to write a memoir about things I have done/seen/learned in life, so maybe someday!)

Anyway, I think this is enough for now, hope you all have a safe NYE and see you all in 2020!



©2019 by The Apartment Wife. Proudly created with